3/21 - 3/24

easter weekend will be summed up
in some pictures i found on the interweb:









basically.
haha i'm not ready for school.
i am, however, looking forward to after school
cause i get to see my bbbaabbyyy girl.
oh my hair is short.
and it looks lame.
but at least i can wear hats again.
hallelujah.

thoughts on nothing

everything i love is a phone call away (modern times)
everything i love will escape me someday (i am not fine)
the wind is bitter and cold even though it's nice out
i can't help but wonder what my life will be about
will i survive past twenty one? my funeral, will anyone come?
well, if i burn out, like the the stars in the sky,
i hope my glow forever encompasses your nights for the rest of time

_________

maybe everything will fall into place one day
maybe i'll forget who i am and float away
maybe i'll build a boat and leave forever
maybe i'll take you with me, together
We'll find an island, for you and i
we'll have a kid and a dog, we'll die this way
maybe my dreams have failed me
maybe i've dreamnt for so long, i can't see reality

Happiness comes rarely from her lips...

Butttttt, with the exception of one girl, i am happy. I had a great night. It was good and simple and I loved it. and i hope more nights like tonight happen with her. I'll fill you in on somethings i did tonight. We [me and krista] walked her dog, max, through a creepy park. Mental note: good spot to smoke. Then we came back to her house and ordered pizza. Then proceeded to watch one tree hill. Which I actually enjoyed, a lot. It was a good episode. Anyways, after that we watched the grim adventures of billy and mandy. All I'm gonna say is, "RAGGLE FRAGGLE!" I hope this continues. She made my day. Now I'm sitting here contemplating why i'm getting basically one word answers from a certain someone. I guess it's whatever. Friendships are a funny thing also a great spectacular thing. I just wish people wouldn't expect things of me. When you expect things from someone, a pre-formed idea, you are 99.7% most likely to be let down. Hence why I don't and that's why I'm always content with myself. A friend of mine came up to me today and said, "why are you always happy? i don't understand it. I'm pissed every second of every day..." Don't take that word for word, cause i'm not sure if that's right. but it's definitely along the lines of it. It got me thinking, is it really that hard for people to be happy now a days? I'm sure everyone has their struggles, problems, what-have-you but there's gotta be one thing that can make you happy when you're feelin' down. I just never let things get to me. I can't. If I were to dwell on something long enough, I'd probably kill myself. Not really, but in extreme cases, that is the case. You can't be happy all the time, that's a given. But you can be happy most of the time. Take a look around and tell me if you think your life is really all that bad. I'll bet a silver dollar that it isn't. Or in someway shape or form, you can change the outcome of whatever problems you are having. I actually had something lengthy to write about. but it might just sound as a mindless rant. I don't know...this is just for me to share my thoughts and here they are.


go listen to the new crime in stereo. it will grow on you. much love and respect. goodnight.

She's alone when she's with me.

laying in my bed, not a care for the world
she's got her problems, and alcohol is the cure
she's not my kinda girl, but she'll do
she's angelic, so still, like she isn't even real
how can i let this go on
how can i let this go on
every kiss is more dangerous than the last
i can't get over anyone's past
i'm a liar, a damn good one at that.
you'll believe anything i say.
before i know it, she's gone in a flash.

fuck your life

fuck everything.


this is the only important thing right now.

what are you doing? go pick this cd up.
downloadit.buyit. all you have to do is listen.
thank you, polarbearclub.

as for my agenda tonight, i'm getting trashed. maybe a drunken post later tonight?

at peace with oneself through simplicity.

So go on

And I will refrain

And I'll keep on running this neverending race

maybe next time will be the right time

and maybe next time will be your time

So save your scissors

For someone else's skin

My surface is so tough

I don't think the blade will dig in

Save your strength

Save your wasted time

There's no way that I want you to be left behind

Go on save your scissors

Save your scissors

So why does it always seem

That every time I turn around

Somebody falls in love with me?

This has never been my sole intention

And I have never claimed to have patents on such inventions

Just save your scissors

For someone else's skin

My surface is so tough

I don't think the blade will dig in

Save your strength

Save your wasted time

There's no way that I want you to be left behind

Go on save your scissors

Save your scissors

There is something that I must confess to you tonight

To you tonight

And that is I expect nothing less from you tonight

From you tonight

listening to c&c, looking out my window, and lighting up a cigarette...i've never felt more at home...

Who wants to go to iceland?

so late

it's the am. i'm randomly thinking about the past. and how good everything used to be. and i look at the presesnt, and realize everything is just as good as the past. i feel a sense of belonging and yet i still feel like something is missing. i miss hardcore, more importantly, i miss hardcore shows, and the overall good feeling of just knowing everyone and having a great time. i'm watching lakai's fully flared and assing out. i can't wait for the warm weather to come out. so i can begin skating again. rage.