Clarity Part II

Dear You,

This is a formal letter written in words that jump and you can sing along too
no matter who you are, or how you're feeling. this isn't a sad song
because i don't want to be crying these tears for nothing
so lets get up and get out!
just me and you, I'll treat you the way I should have
Cause I've come to terms with how you got over me so easily
and it's very very easy to explain, i wasn't worth keeping around
maybe you felt that i was bringing you down
and I was, and I'm sorry for not being who I needed to be for you
Apologies and I'm sorry's for the person I used to be
And from the new me, an I love you and I miss you, but i get it now
This is clarity for the first time in my life
and you brought it to me inadvertently
I'd take you back anytime of the week, month or year.
I'll always be right here, but I'm not waiting
I'll just keep my arms open and the light on because you never know
fate can be very cheesy, but if it's meant to be, we will be.
and that's enough to keep moving, to keep going.
I apologize for it being so long, but it took a couple of days to write this song
it's been in my head for days, and i was searching for the perfect words to say
and if i scared you away, with things like forever and marriage
just know i meant what i said when i said
"you're the only girl who could put up with me till death."
baby, it was a compliment. it was a compliment.
I apologize for dragging this out, and I apologize for some childish things i did
But My head is screwed tight, I'm not going anywhere without your memory in mind
and I'm not sad anymore, and I'm so glad you're doing well.
I'll make sure to keep in touch, but please don't forget about me.


Yours Truly, Sincerely,
Ian Cordova


PS. I loved you, and still do. I miss you, but it's through
Today I learned the meaning of change, and it's always happening.

Clarity

I have been blinded by selfish ideals
I've always thought the world needed change
But I realize now that I am the one who must change
I must be strong and full of heart
Nothing will stop me once I've reached where I need to be
And no one can teach me that but myself
I must learn and I must live on my own
The road will be harsh and at times everything will seem worthless
but i must persevere, I must strive
Today, marks a new beginning in my life and my life alone
Today, I see things in a new light.

Life and Death and the Importance of Knowing the Difference

I will die with my words at my teeth
reach the surface begging for sweet oxygen
How many more rounds do I have before I'm the victim?
Take a quick look around, hear the sound of silent cries for help
this is a war, this is a massacre
what will we have to drink and eat today?
ah, a bottle of your finest blood
and the freshest cooked meat of our enemies
We love to forget the very essence of our core
No one wants to believe we're all the same
It's like speaking in tongue to the dumb
The wool is over your eyes and the sheep are in wolves skin
i used to be able to smell their fear
now i can only battle with my tears
for i thought, kill or be killed?
so yelled up at the sky
"Lord, if you're listening, send me a sign!"
He sent down a nuclear bomb
and I cleansed mankind

Most Things Are Easier Said Than Done

An emotionless shipwreck, caught up on the shores of loneliness
and the rocks that pierce through this, are the last words you said to me
I can't understand how I've gotten so attached
and yet I've got so much life left to live or do i?
I'm the kind of person who looks at the bigger picture
rather than what's been shoved down our throats
i can't forget the way you made feel, and I hope, given the circumstances,
that we may find our way back into our arms
but it seems almost impossible to reach you dear.
my window of opportunity is lost in the fog of the future
and our steps we take now only dictate where we'll end up
so we're not going anywhere running in circles.

I wonder about the men and women and children who've never felt the love of another
and i wonder are they the lucky ones or the unfortunate?
i can't decide anymore on much of anything.
my mind has become a grave for ideas to rot
because no ones listening to me again, and i can't say it feels great
am i that much different from you?
take off your shirt and show me your bones
show me your skin, show me where love comes from
because i had found it inside you
it was hard to find, and hard to attain
and i enjoyed the climb but wasn't ready for the fall

now here i lay, wondering who's next to catch your eyes
and i can't lie, but i die a little inside from the news
broadcasting from your mouth, straight into my ears
like a silencer held right up against my chest
the trigger will be pulled multiple times
and i'm wondering when will i become numb
when will i give up on love?
because if everything eventually ends
we were never worth it from the beginning
and you said, "ian, you're so pessimistic.
did i not mean anything to you?
what we had was great.
it had it's place, it had it's time. time to move on.
now sweetheart you know better than i do,
we all need to be alone, sometimes."


i can't forget the way you made me feel
i know from experience we had something no one had.
but like you said girl, "we all need to be alone, sometimes."
i just wish i wasn't alone.
take my heart away, it's yours to keep,
i've figured out, i don't need it anymore
so until you return, hold it near
because you're holding me.

Your Intentions Were Mistaken For Selfishness

I KNOW, for a fact, that I'm a small part
in your head and in your heart
the effort made to say anything to me
without me saying a god damn thing to you
is comparable to the cheapness of your taste

something must have invaded your mind
clouded your love, and steered you away from me
but it ain't that easy baby
I've got arms like tentacles
and I'm ready to pull you to me
whether you like it or not

and it's the beast in me that feeds off the purity i took from you
and it's the coward in me who won't let the tears fall as they may
but we're just rollin' dice in this game of life

you're hoping for the best, but i've always expected the worse

you are stretching the truth
you're lost in the haze
people say it's okay to dream
but be careful with reality
and i know so much about it
it will hit you like bricks

and if and when it does, I'll be long gone
this body has become a vessel
you have become a commoner

The Stangest Things Occur When You're Left to Think Alone

All the love in the world won't be able to fill the void
That I let you make inside of the frail organ that is my heart
if you ever think back to this day,
i will never forget the face you gave me
and the tears you left,the same ones I drowned in.

in the room i have formed to a cave
the wall of your pictures serve as the reminder that
"it is better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all"
and this idea will keep the winter cold at bay for the moment
but the breeze creeps in anyway and doesn't let me forget
that i am somewhat alone among the ones i love most

but those pictures aren't up anymore
which leads me to believe
i can feel the earth rotating now
(as if she knows what I'm talking about)

all those times you made the clocks on the walls stop
will be a memory, because forever WAS a joke
and love is a feeling that leaves you feeling cheated
as if something is missing, but are you missing?

if this is the end,
then goodbye lover
and hello friend