bittersweet misery

the room is dark and my hands are cold
cold to the touch as i reach for some enlightenment
it's too much to ask for, i guess

staring at the sky i still wonder how am i alive
i can't feel sorry for who i am
and all the good, and all the bad
is just more memories i've stacked
in a nice little pile next to my bed

bittersweet misery engulfing me

i still wonder the same things
i'll always question everything
i'll be as honest as i can be
sincerity inside of me, can't you see?

bittersweet misery engulfing me

Dark Hair, Brown Eyes

it's like a candle with the brightest flame
burning, lighting everything around it
and the warmth you feel of the flame against your fingertips
up against my face, i feel the warmth you bring
to this unlikely life i tend to lead in a rush
because i'm always so far down but you're enough

to get me to sleep
to dream of wonderful nothings
and while you slept
I dreamt us infinite

this love is proof of existence
and i don't need to know the statistics
because it's always win or lose
and the game we play is a minor step
just a minor step to happiness

i can't let go
but one day i'll have to
and it hurts everyday

Believing Is Only Half The Illusion

So when you wake up to the earthly smell
of a war torn world with no regrets
Yet you still want your plasma tv's

I still want my basketball, football celebrities
we can't survive without hollywood
entertainment for the weak, you're all dead
you don't even know it.

so how do we rise up from these ashes
how do we continue with these chains
the shackles get heavier by the day
restraining, constricting logical thought

i'm scared like you
but i will not pretend everything is okay
i'm scared like you
but i will never pretend everything is okay