Soo...

it's 2 in the morning, and i was watching a youtube interview with greg from the mongoloids and it was a bit weird. i was just thinking how i used to see this guy around and now he's touring europe and touring the USA and he's making moves along with other dudes i've met and some i've known. Reminds about how hardcore used to be so awesome. but how it always revovled around who you knew or what you did. I hated that. I really used to love the hardcore scene and the friends i made because of it. but now I find myself in a different place with different faces and different musical direction. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not some elitist who thinks my music is better than yours. I could care less. listen to what makes you happy, even if it's commercialized that is force fed to you via radio, tv, commercials...etc. whatever, if a fucking jingle brightens your day, so be it. But I've given up on elitist ideals about music and learned to listen to whatever the fuck really pleases my ears. No matter how easy it can be played or how hard, that shouldn't matter. that should never fucking matter. Passion is what matters, but that seems to be lacking these days. I miss the friendly faces, the stupidity that ensues before, during and after a show. I still enjoy hardcore, and I always will, no matter how the same or different it changes/stays. I fell in love with hardcore for the feeling it gave me. A place no one could take away from me. And now its a lot different. Everything is different and people have grown and moved on. But I haven't really ever moved on...one day i'll make sense, but for now enjoy the gibberish i provide.



is anybody listening?